The past few weeks have been filled with joy, blessings, and a lot of excitement. It all began with a visit from my son, Steve whom I hadn’t seen in about a year. I was excited to see him as well as to show him around the city of Santa Fe, the place I currently call home. It didn’t take long for him to be in awe of the beauty that I cherish each day. There was not a day during his visit that I didn’t hear, “I really like it here.” Yes, this city has a way of captivating you.Read More
Around 8:30 tonight, my phone rang and the voice on the other end, says, are you busy? I answered no and before saying anything else, I heard, can I come by, I am just around the corner. I said sure. Once my friend arrived, first words stated, were “it’s Friday night, what are you doing home, people will think you are lonely? I started laughing and said, I am relaxing, and I am not lonely, but what does Friday night have to do with anything? Deep inside, I already knew how they were going to answer, as I use to feel the same way.Read More
Often, we live most of our lives with meanings from childhood all around us, "be a good girl", "to succeed you have to do or be this or that", "you have to work hard at everything" and many more. Through the years, you become all that conditioning and somewhere you have lost yourself. In time you will be challenging the image of who you have told you are and who others 'think' you should be. From experience, I will say, you will go to some dark places and be way off your path. Truthfully, you have lost your authentic self and the journey back depending on how long you wait, may bring along days of being uncomfortable.
Many our living a life based on the influences around them. In so many ways becoming sheep, following and becoming what others thought they should be. Deep inside there is a constant message of needing to do more, be better, find something new.... all leading to anger and self-loathing.Read More
I can be hard on myself…
That is the truth!Read More
If you truly loved yourself, you could never hurt another." Buddha
It was only through being truly alone with myself and some time in silence that this quote turned on the light of its true meaning.Read More
“Whenever we seek to avoid the responsibility for our own behavior, we do so by attempting to give that responsibility to some other individual or organization or entity. But this means we then give away our power to that entity.” ~ Scott PeckRead More
I am not sure exactly when it happened but somewhere along the way, my love affair with exercise changed.
Growing up, I was fortunate to live in a city that valued activity for the community. We had community parks within walking distance of most of our neighborhoods, public schools had community school directors and part of their job was to keep the school open later into the evening with activities for kids and everyone could attend even if you didn’t go to that school. In the summer we had access to community pools where swimming lessons were offered in the morning and open swim time in the afternoon. There were neighborhood fields for softball and baseball, numerous golf courses who set specific days to teach kids how to golf, tennis courts, and opportunities to play badminton. Fall brought football, and options for cross country running and bowling. When winter approached those parks had options for sledding and tobogganing and many had ice skating rinks where we learned to figure skate, play hockey or even speed skate. Add in the activities just in being a kid of riding bikes, roller skating, walking, running, playing dodge ball or kickball or just playing tag. This list just tips the iceberg of the opportunities I grew up with.Read More
Becoming comfortable with the idea that I am creative has been uncomfortable. As one of my commitments to myself has been to get comfortable with being uncomfortable I know I am on the right track.Read More
For most of my life, this is not the question that was asked. It was always, “How are you feeling today?” Having lived with illness for a majority of my life, it became easy to just say, I am fine, which may or may not have been the truth. In looking back, I realize that saying I am fine, answered the question, and told others, very little. Along the way I had learned that “How are you today”, is a polite question and very few people who were around me at the time really wanted to know how I was feeling. I also have since come to the realization, I really had no idea how I was feeling.Read More
When looking around your world, where do you rate? Are you at the top of your list? If not, have you asked yourself why you are not important?
When looking at the world around you, are you like many who put everyone and everything before you consider yourself.Read More
In my dream state last night, I could see two women having a discussion. It was difficult to see them in the fog and hearing what they were saying was impossible as they were speaking just above a whisper. As I looked around to take in the scene, there was nothing to take in but these two women. As I went closer, I realized the women were me. One was of me now and the other was about 30 years ago. Hmm, what is this all about?Read More
In Human Design, once you gain an understanding of your type, strategy and authority and have started to experiment living with them, the next step is to really settle in to what each of your centers does and the differences between having an open/undefined center and a closed/defined center. When a center is closed/defined (colored in your chart), it means that the function related to that center is activated, steady and consistently available at all times. When a center is open/undefined (white in your chart), it means that the function related to the center is inconsistent; not always available and only becomes activated when another person (who has the center defined/closed) comes into your awareness or when a transiting planet completes a definition. When this happens, the undefined center is temporarily defined.Read More
Relationships are a natural part of our lives. We have relationships with ourselves, with parents, other family, friends, partners, children and with so many other people we come in contact with in work setting, volunteer settings, and in numerous other activities that we come in contact with every day.Read More
Awakening this morning, I found myself filled with so many emotions. In my life, I have weathered, tornadoes, blizzards, deaths, numerous other types of losses, and more amazing life experiences than I can even begin to name. But a Hurricane and then to have it be one of the largest ever, NO, I had no experience with that, and yet as the week went on, I realized, with guidance from my friend, mentor and teacher, Liana, I really had all I needed, deep inside of me and that power when utilized correctly will never stir me wrong.Read More
Projectors in a Generator World
Keeping up with the Generators
Imagine this for a minute-
You have just arrived home after a long day at the office. As you walk into your home, the dog, your spouse and each of your children greet you with a show of appreciation that you have arrived. With each greeting you feel yourself relaxing, filled with so much joy and a sense of belonging. Now imagine, coming home and no one greets you, your spouse is on the phone, one of the kids is buried in homework, the other is playing a musical instrument and the dog is more interested in the squirrel climbing up the tree in the backyard.Read More