I have had feelings deep within that begin to bubble up and then sink back down for the last few weeks. They have been quite intense this weekend, again. Each step to finding who I AM at my core on this spiritual journey has been an awakening.
The past few weeks have been filled with joy, blessings, and a lot of excitement. It all began with a visit from my son, Steve whom I hadn’t seen in about a year. I was excited to see him as well as to show him around the city of Santa Fe, the place I currently call home. It didn’t take long for him to be in awe of the beauty that I cherish each day. There was not a day during his visit that I didn’t hear, “I really like it here.” Yes, this city has a way of captivating you.
Each day I understand more and more the importance of sending all information I receive through my heart to feel if it is for me. If it is, I keep it, if not, I release it.
It wasn’t long ago when I wasn’t always sure if the call I was hearing was my inner desires and dreams or just more old messaging coming through. The deeper I have been able to explore my soul, shift through all the chatter, sit in silence, pray, the easier it has been to decipher what is for me.
Each day, I experience feelings to remind me that there is something greater than the concrete word we inhabit. Often, that feeling comes through in something I am reading that has been uncovered in science, other times it is being immersed in nature, the energy that comes through in connecting with others, or in my quiet time creating or visualizing. No matter the activity, each is always grounding and fills me with grace. It is all of these feelings and experiences that continue to form and enhance my spirituality.
A morning ritual of mine is before getting out of bed is morning pages (from the book The Artist’s Way, by Julia Cameron). It is a practice I have been doing on and off for many years. Five weeks ago, I committed myself to reread the book and not only do morning pages but to do all the exercises as she has them laid out in the book. Today begins my week five of 12. Add to this my weekly rituals of listening to programs and other teachings by @LianaShanti, that I have been following for the last six years. All of the programs and teachings I have added to my life are to help heal. In the past six years, I became aware of the depth of wounding I was carrying, how pain and suffering were imbedded into my
thinking, and had become a cycle that at the time looked to be never-ending.
So, to say I was a bit surprised this week, while writing my morning pages, that the words coming out on the page were so heavy in anger or rage. Anger is an emotion that I bypassed for a long time. I would be sad, disgusted, frustrated, but seldom angry, and if I was, it was biting, normally a projection at
someone, and I would move on. Rage, well it is a word I know, but I am unsure if I have ever been rage full in life – until the other morning. It has been a long time since I have written that fast and furious, and the pages contained so many critical and hurtful words, and every one of them directed at ME. As I finished, I reread what I wrote, which I never do, and just found myself in a pile of tears. I was
upset but also shocked as where was this coming from and now what?
I let the tears flow but also knew I had to be in the office in an hour. I shared with my inner self that I wasn’t ignoring what was needed, and it would be a priority later in the day. I went into the office, saw a couple of clients, and reshuffled the rest of my day. I love myself enough today that taking care of me
is a priority. I left the office, and within seconds tears were falling again. I let them. I cried on and off for the next few hours, found myself writing and purging.
Then I fell asleep. I was exhausted. (Continued in comments)
A day of being present and letting whatever needs to come up- do so. So grateful for many tools to guide me. I have been immersed in week 4 of @juliacameronlive The Artist’s Way ( my third time through since 1999). A welcomed immersion. Week 11 of Lifepath Manifesting, sessions 1 & 2 of healing the narcissist (both programs by @lianashanti), a long walk in nature and now some hot tea. Honor yourself and be present.
A gorgeous day in the mountains.
Fall always puts me in the mood to cook. After buying squash and pumpkins, I was excited to cook them today. The instant pot makes it so easy. Just put them in whole and cook. I made a huge veggie chili, pumpkin puree, a squash casserole and some I will add to other recipes. I also roasted cabbage, carrots and eggplants that will become dinner the next few nights. It helps make nights after work much easier. I had the chili for a late lunch and the smoothie will be dinner. A happy productive day.
#eattolive #plantbased #hmihealthcoach #fallcooking #cookingisfun
A juicing day. For me, I drink at least a green juice every day. I usually pick one day if the week where I only drink juice, water, and tea for the day. Today is that day. It is so wonderful and healing to give your digestive system a rest. I always feel clearer on my juice days as I am flooding my body with a gallon of freshly made juices. Today’s green juices are combinations of celery, cucumbers, kale, spinach, green apples, and limes. The red juice is 3 types of melons and lime, and the orange is sweet potatoes, ginger, grapefruit, oranges, and carrots.
Juicing has been so important in my life when I was walking the path to heal my body after living with 3 autoimmune disorders and other illnesses. Feels so good to have so many tools to keep me healthy. Are you ready to heal your body? Stay tuned for information on a a group fast I will be leading beginning 10/14 or email me at email@example.com for more information.
#livehealthy #juicing #holistichealing #hminutritioncoach #juicefasting #plantbasedeating #foodismymedicine #painaddiction #chronicpain
Every day is a gift. When I wake up in the morning, I offer gratitude for my breath, for opening my eyes and for all my limbs being and to move. I write morning pages (from the book The Artist’s Way) and dump all that is swirling in my head. I take a few minutes after writing to feel, what I want to do for myself today that is just about me. Make yourself important, be important, be a priority. Each day I choose to do 3 special things for myself, based on spirituality, health, and what I am manifesting for my life.
What are you doing for yourself today?
#selfcare #priorities #focus #selfworth #autoimmune #painaddiction #eachdayisagift
Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love. Rumi